This is kind of a continuation of answering the question "Where have I been this whole time?".

I think the last time I made a video was like February (it was January, just checked wow), and the last time I made an actual post on this website was an even longer time ago. I sort of feel bad for being gone for so long, but at the same time, I feel like it's a good thing I didn't because I've gone through a bunch of random stuff the past half year, and I also had time to think about how I was in the past year or two.

I was kinda just writing whenever I felt bad and used my videos and site as a place to vent, which in retrospect, I think was kind of a bad thing, primarily because I don't think I should be using a public internet spt as somewhere to vent personal emotions, but also because I think writing about it the way I was sort of enabled that negativity I think. I don't really know if that's actually the case, but I don't think I should be writing about that sort of stuff so casually.

As of writing this, it's been like 7 hours, I just went to work, so I've lost my train of thought, but yeah. I also wanted to talk about how I've been this past year. I would say overall, it's interesting to notice how much better of a person I've become this past year, and I'm not saying that to make myself feel or look better, but it's more like I've had to deal with some stuff that's forced me to grow and improve as a person. I'm not going to delve into it, because frankly it's personal stuff that I don't want to talk about, but the point is that I did some stupid shit and I learned my lesson.

I will say though, I am worried about if I will regress during the winter. I have pointed out in the past that I've noticed the pattern that my mood and mental state are generally worse in the winter, but a big stressor on my life is sort of gone now, so we will see how that changes things.

Kind of just saying stuff at this point right now, not really sure what else to say on this, but I kinda wanted to discuss my past posts and how things are gonna go now, so yeah. Thanks for reading.

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